Films To Watch In Quarantine

I recently asked people on my insta stories what films they were watching and I got a lot of responses so I thought I’d share some with you.

These are the films people recommended I watch:

  • Knives Out
  • Parasite
  • Midsommar
  • Beauty and The Beast
  • Hot Fuzz
  • Brain on Fire
  • Parent Trap
  • Princess Diaries
  • You’re Next
  • Black and Blue
  • Cool Runnings
  • All the Harry Potter films
  • Green Room
  • Catch Me If You Can
  • John Wick
  • About Time
  • Love, Simon
  • Sing Street
  • Little Women
  • Moonrise Kingdom
  • Nutcracker and the Four Realms
  • All the Toy Story Films
  • All the MCU
  • Prisoners
  • Interstellar
  • 1917
  • Ad Astra
  • The Gift
  • Me Before You
  • Snatch
  • Frozen 2
  • Seeing Double
  • Synecdoche, New York
  • The Iron Giant
  • The Gentlemen
  • The Invisible Man
  • Hunt for the Wilderpeople
  • Whiplash
  • Contagion
  • Chicago 2002
  • Bird man
  • Les Miserables
  • Cats
  • The Rescuers

Medication doesn’t make you weak

There’s this weird misconception that taking medication for your mental health makes you weak. There’s also a weird misconception that mental health medication is something you shouldn’t take because ‘nature is a natural antidepressant’.

I used to be really scared of taking medication for my mental health, mostly because of the huge stigma around it but also because I decided to read the long list of side effects almost all drugs have. The first thing I ever took for my mental health was something to help my anxiety and after a few months on it, I decided it wasn’t for me because although it sometimes calmed my anxiety, it also made my panic attacks worse when they did happen. I was put off medication for a while after that until things started to get really bad. I started antidepressants in 2017 and ever since then my life has completely changed for the better. The first few weeks sucked, I felt so ill and I was never hungry and it sucked but after a while I slowly but surely started to get better and I slowly and surely noticed my mental health also started to get better. I’ve been on my medication for a year and a half now and I’m so much more confident in myself and my panic attacks are so rare now that I can actually go out and enjoy myself. Medication hasn’t solved all my issues of course because I still do have really bad days and I still do get panic attacks but they’re not as frequent and I’ve found that the thoughts in my head are kinder than they used to be. I see the world very differently now than when I was at my worst and I owe a lot of that to my medication which is why it hurts so much to see people belittle it.

Please, if you’re going to belittle mental health medication please read the personal experiences of people, like me, whose lives have changed for the better because of it.

– Rachel

The room is on fire, invisible smoke

‘The room is on fire

Invisible smoke’

In just 7 words Taylor Swift has so beautifully and tragically summed up what anxiety feels like for me.

Anxiety is complex and I’ve spent so long trying to put into words what it feels like.

Having anxiety is like being trapped in the rubble of a demolished building. It’s you fighting so hard to clear away the stones and mess around you but no matter how hard you try there always seems to be more left. Some days I let myself suffocate in the rubble because I’m too tired of fighting and I’m too tired of feeling like I never close to the light whereas other days I swear I can see just a glimpse of light and that thought can help motivate me to carry on. The struggle is, the rubble isn’t real and it’s hard to escape from something that’s not really there.

The panic of a room being on fire is so real with anxiety because you always feel like something is really wrong but then when other people look around they see nothing and that’s why it’s so hard to explain what’s going on in your head because no one else can see it.

Just hearing these words just reminds me that although it’s not exactly the same, maybe other people get what I’m going through and maybe other people understand the pain of being scared of something that isn’t truly there and when I hear these lyrics I feel less alone and that’s all I’ve ever wanted and the light I need on those days where I’m consumed in my own thoughts.

– rachel

Sorry for when I was a toxic friend…

Ever since I’ve started uni I feel like I’ve grown a lot as a person. I look back and I have a lot of regrets really about the things I’ve said and the way I’ve acted and I think that’s growth (to a certain extent, of course)

I think the thing is you can spend so much time trying to find something to blame that often you end up being the problem and that’s often something I’ve ignored for so long.

Firstly, people don’t know what’s going on in your life and you can’t expect them to. If you read my old mental health posts you’ll see a lot of anger directed towards people because I expected them to notice something that even I couldn’t notice. As important as it is to look after your friends, it’s also important to look after yourself and you can’t always expect people to notice when things aren’t going good, especially when you show no indication that there’s anything wrong.

Secondly, if there’s a problem SAY IT TO THEM! There’s no reason to keep it to yourself because at the end of the day you’re hurting everyone by not addressing a situation as soon as it comes about and it ends up spiralling into something bigger

At the end of the day, there’s going to be times when you are the toxic friend and it’s important to recognise that and to not act like a saint. Sometimes you might not even know you’re being toxic to someone and you might not even mean to hurt someone but you may still do it.

Finally, I want to apologise for when I’ve been a toxic person in someone’s life. All I can do is apologise and sometimes that’s not enough and that’s okay but it’s important to recognise when you’re wrong. There’s no need to bitterness and anger for things that are out of everyone’s control and I wish that was something I could’ve learned earlier.

– rachel

Summer Playlist

I made a summer Playlist which I personally think is kind of good so here’s the links to Spotify and Apple Music if you wanna listen


Listen to it in order!

Its very important to LISTEN in order and idc how much you like to shuffle. IN ORDER.

I basically just have a thing of making a playlist so it sounds good, to me at least, in a certain order and sometimes, not this one, the order kinda tells a story so yeah ORDER IS IMPORTANT

Apple Music:


– rachel

NEW VIDEO: How to Cope with Panic Attacks

So today’s video is another mental health related video and it’s about coping with panic attacks, if you couldn’t already tell from the title.

Why now?

So, recently I went to Disneyland Paris and posted A LOT on instagram but what I didn’t actually post about was that I had a panic attack on my last day. Panic attacks always come out of the blue, for me at least, but this one was so unexpected because I haven’t had a major panic attack in months and because of that I actually struggled to cope with it. This is why I wanted to make this video because whether its your first panic attack or you 100th panic attack, it can still be scary and unexpected and in the moment you don’t really know what to do. This video is both a reminder for other people and myself on simple ways to just help get your panic attack under control.

I hope you like this video and I hope it helps you as much as it helps me 🙂


Our story begins in Lancaster….

Sadly, Lancaster is no New York because unlike the city that never sleeps, Lancaster always seems to sleep (apart from on Wednesdays and Fridays, of course)

So, it’s been a while since I’ve made a blog post but I really want to start with this blogging thing as it’s basically YouTube but I have to use punctuation. (Which is scary bc I mess it up a lot)

Anyway, let’s go.

– rachel



I wanted to give this thing blogging thing a go so here is my first blog post.

I’m gonna talk about a lot of things on here from mental health to travelling and I hope you might enjoy reading about my opinion on life and things.

In the meantime, if you want to keep up with my life and stuff follow my social media:

Twitter: @rachellord22

Instagram: @rachellord22